Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too

Yay

WAR OF THE WORLDS

1. Everything in life is a gift from God.

2. Faith is what makes life meaningful.

3. Without money, a little is lost;

Without honour, more is lost;

Without God, all is lost.

Frustration

That indescribable feeling that has its grip over me a number times just this December. But there's nothing anyone can do about it. Just afraid I'll fall deeper. Everything will be shattered. Sometimes you wonder what you live for. It's a shame I can't put my thoughts into words. It's so frustrating. Extremely in fact. Sometimes you just wish that there's someone who can read your thoughts. Then the burden will be lighter.

Thinkin'...

Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire.

倒帶

终於看开爱回不来

而你总是太晚明白

最後才把话说开

哭著求我留下来

终於看开爱回不来

我们面前太多阻碍

你的手却放不开

宁愿没出息求我别离开

Mood: Reflective

Just when you begin to wonder how God speaks to us, He chooses the most unlikiest of ways. I seem to have trouble listening to Him. Somehow, I just do not know when He is speaking to me. Bouts of depression lately. After an extremely emotionally draining day, I had a dream two nights ago. The next morning, he revealed himself to me again thru a good friend whilst breakfast one morning before studying. Even without me mentioning my burdens, this friend of mine just mentioned that sometimes, He doesn't want us to take a certain path is because He has better things in store for us. I mean, I used to believe that. What happened suddenly? Perhaps, God gives us gentle reminders every now and then, that He is still present when we think otherwise, that patience is a virtue. Good things are worth waiting for. Even if it seems the most unlikiest of scenarios at the moment, miracles will and do happen. You just gotta pray and beg God for it. He will answer. Another point mentioned by my friend who gave his own testimony. We just have to obey Him. Sounds easy, but not at all.

Sidenote: I'm so thankful for my mum.

Tell me where it hurts

It's pouring out there, and inside...

You know I'm not good with words; and I know u know this song, so here goes:

What is that sad look in your eyes

Why are you crying

Tell me now, tell me now

Tell me, why you’re feelin’ this way

I hate to see you so down, oh baby

Is it your heart

Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces

Makin’ you cry

Makin’ you feel blue

Is there anything that I can do

Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now, baby

And I’ll do my best to make it better

Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away

Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me

And I love you with a love so tender

Oh and if you let me stay

I’ll love all of the hurt away

I can wait forever

When you say, I miss the things you do
I just want to get back close again to you
But for now, your voice is near enough
How I miss you and I miss your love
And though, all the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows
All around and there's no way out
I'm just thinking so much of you
There was never any doubt

I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you

When it looked as though my life was wrong
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong
I'll be here, when hope is out of sight
I just wish that I were next to you tonight
And though, Ill be reaching for you even though
You'll be somewhere else, my love will go
Like a bird on its way back home
I could never let you go
And I just want you to know

I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you

-Lyrics by Air Supply-

Down, Not Out

Mood meter: 2/10

Fuzzy Wuzzy

All warm and fuzzy these days...

Some recent pictures

State: Confused

You hate the feeling:

When your heart tells you one thing, but your head tells you another.

When situations all around you seem to point towards smth not meant for you, but then, just when you thought you've got the answer to your dilemma, everything seems to work in your favour once again, and it makes you rethink.

When it's been ages since you've felt that way, and the feeling returns because of someone you've met, only to realise that it may not work out eventually.

When people you've consulted have reminded you to think of someone higher up there, but you still want to go ahead and try. The human nature. It's not as if I've haven't been there before, it's the stupid voice which still says it may be possible somehow.

Of having the person who eventually may be the one, to be around you when all these happen.

Of being the person who has to be around when someone you like, likes another. And all you can do is nothing. And it hurts because nobody knows anything.

Of waiting without any certainty of the future. Some people say 'seize the day', others say 'good things take time'. Which will you listen to?

4 Things You Cannot Recover

The stone after it's shot.
The word after it's spoken.
The occasion after it's lost.
The time after it's gone.

Update

Yes I'm still alive. Just don't know what to blog about haha. Ask me about my life. =P

More and Less

Less emotional; Less impulsive; More decisive.

I hate this feeling

I think we cannot go on like this. We shd stop. It's obvious to you isn't it? Somethings I don't hafta say, cause u noe i dun have the heart to. But if situation warrants me to, I'm sorry but I will. For the long term good. Maybe it isn't love you're feeling. How do you know it is anyway? It takes two hands to clap. Somehow, i just don't feel the 'connection'. You shd be able to sense it. I need to break it to you.

Hats off

Taken off Deborah's blog =)

A cruel little joke

One day, as i scrolled thru my phonebook, i decided to sms her. We arranged to meet up on Monday, but as fate would have it, we met on saturday instead. And after a couple of drinks, we sat down to talk. Then we learnt about the past. that was 5 years ago. A long time. When we met again on sunday, more things were revealed, but it was complicated. Much too complicated. Today, things changed drastically. How i wished i said things i should have said, and not do things i shdn have done. She said i'll still have a special place in her heart. But for how long? I should be fair to her. I should just tell her the truth. We cant go on like this forever. It ain't right.