Wow, a story for November Rain:
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
Back!
Man, just realised it's been awfully long since i last blogged. Oh well, have been spending lotsa time building my future, laying the foundations now whilst school's not started yet.
In the process, i finally realise what a negative world this is. Flip open the papers and you'll understand what i mean. On another note of negativity, fear and doubt rule many people's lives. Because of fear of failing, because of doubts that a certain method will succeed, people are resistant to change. But guess what? I dun blame them at all. I was, after all, one of them. I understand where they're comin from and how they feel. If only however, they can understand how elated i am right now the moment i made that decision to change my life for the better in the future. As a friend, i really wish they can see it sooner rather than later. You know what? Whoever said no hard work is involved? Of course we hafta put in effort, and the winner is the one who doesn quit in times of adversities for these will surely form part of any activities we get involved in. That in mind, my dreams are not for sale. Thank you very much. Not so much the car, the house or whatever material that comes along as i would like to call it, a by-product. Instead, i'm looking to be able to spend quality time with my family, my kids, and to ensure my parents to grow old gracefully in a positive environment. Different people have different emotional dreams attached to themselves. And I'm certain of mine. After all, personal freedom doesn't come without financial freesdom. "Hullo??"
My subconscious starts tellin me smth as well. Even if people are apprenhensive, a true friend will say: "sorry bro, u know it's not for me. But if u think it'll work for u, go ahead and i'd support u." Compare it with: "sorry bro, i think it's stupid. u'll never gona make it." Get the difference? That said, I don't take things personally. Rest assured I won't lose a friendship over that.
Back to negativity, we can never escape from it no matter where we turn. We can't avoid it. However, we can dilute it with positivity. The mind is a powerful tool mind you. Go google "law of attraction". Rubbish you say? I wun argue with you, but it's your life. Thoughts translate into words, and words, actions. You decide.
To those who're concerned, i appreciate your concerns. My results this time round wasn't too good. But studies will come first. I'm looking fwd to next academic year. I've got loads to do. I only live once. And i'm not gona look back on life when i'm on my deathbed and wonder to myself, "what have i been doing all these years?"
And by the way, I've gained, not lost.
In the process, i finally realise what a negative world this is. Flip open the papers and you'll understand what i mean. On another note of negativity, fear and doubt rule many people's lives. Because of fear of failing, because of doubts that a certain method will succeed, people are resistant to change. But guess what? I dun blame them at all. I was, after all, one of them. I understand where they're comin from and how they feel. If only however, they can understand how elated i am right now the moment i made that decision to change my life for the better in the future. As a friend, i really wish they can see it sooner rather than later. You know what? Whoever said no hard work is involved? Of course we hafta put in effort, and the winner is the one who doesn quit in times of adversities for these will surely form part of any activities we get involved in. That in mind, my dreams are not for sale. Thank you very much. Not so much the car, the house or whatever material that comes along as i would like to call it, a by-product. Instead, i'm looking to be able to spend quality time with my family, my kids, and to ensure my parents to grow old gracefully in a positive environment. Different people have different emotional dreams attached to themselves. And I'm certain of mine. After all, personal freedom doesn't come without financial freesdom. "Hullo??"
My subconscious starts tellin me smth as well. Even if people are apprenhensive, a true friend will say: "sorry bro, u know it's not for me. But if u think it'll work for u, go ahead and i'd support u." Compare it with: "sorry bro, i think it's stupid. u'll never gona make it." Get the difference? That said, I don't take things personally. Rest assured I won't lose a friendship over that.
Back to negativity, we can never escape from it no matter where we turn. We can't avoid it. However, we can dilute it with positivity. The mind is a powerful tool mind you. Go google "law of attraction". Rubbish you say? I wun argue with you, but it's your life. Thoughts translate into words, and words, actions. You decide.
To those who're concerned, i appreciate your concerns. My results this time round wasn't too good. But studies will come first. I'm looking fwd to next academic year. I've got loads to do. I only live once. And i'm not gona look back on life when i'm on my deathbed and wonder to myself, "what have i been doing all these years?"
And by the way, I've gained, not lost.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Nobody knows
It's hard when even the ppl closest to you start saying you'll never graduate well. True, give me advice and stuff, i appreciate them, even if it means reminding me of the consequences of doing certain things. Things i need to improve on as a person etc...i appreciate your input. But don't put me down just like that, not when even things have not taken off. All i can say is, let me prove you wrong, let me put smiles on your faces at the end of the day, and you'll look back to this day and say to yourself: "we should have had more faith in him."
Numbed.
Numbed.
Never been better
Hmm...just had a good chat on msn with you =) Caught up about life's happenings and got ourselves updated. Oh well, I'm happy for you =) And i hope things'll work out between you and him yea? And...I think you're special; don't think you aren't ok? Have faith. If you should feel weary along the way, take a break, stop and rest, but don't give up =) If He brings you to it, there must be some good tt'll come out of it, no matter the outcome. And if you're reading this, just to let you know, I'll alwz be a phonecall away =)
I wish you all the best =)
I wish you all the best =)
Sunday, May 20, 2007
So many things, so little time. Random thoughts.
Yea, it's an irony. But i'm not talking about these 3 months of holidays before crazy school life starts again.
It's about your whole life.
Suddenly, y0u reach one of the points in your life where you take a step back again and start to look at it from a third person's point of view.
You begin to wonder, what do i want to achieve, really? To be top in your field of expertise....but working in another field? With paper qualifications in this and that etc? "Jack of all trades, master of none"...What's the point? To settle down at a certain age, hopefully, and not slog it out for the rest of your life to feed your family and get caught up in the viscious circle of not spending time with your beloved wife and kids? Now i definitely don't want that to happen to me.
How about retiring early and being debt-free, being able to provide for my family without compromising time spent with them? Sounds too good to be true? Then again...whoever said retirement is about age?
How about having a common goal for all that we're doing? As in like, you alwz hear ppl saying, "Doing it for the greater glory of God"...cheem? Yea, my sentiments exactly. But perhaps that's the driving factor behind everything. The motivating factor.
When people talk about having dreams, they stop there. They dun realise and don't noe that it's the little things that we do that help us work towards our dreams. Like i said, the motivating factor. Mine? I picture myself seated on a sofa in a nice hse, chillin over some drinks with my best friends and my wife, with the kids runnin in the yard, playin with our golden retriever, havin fun. Being able to see to the needs of my parents in their old age. Being able to contribute regularly to a certain charity of our choice. Taking nice holidays with my wife and kids occasionally.
Perhaps that, coupled with "doing it all for the greater glory of God", is my motivating factor. I'm thinkin now, when the chips are down, which they will be at some point, will i still be strong enough to sit up and relook at my dream?
I believe, dreams can turn into reality. Power of the spoken word, power of the mind and will. What am i doing now to ensure a better life ahead? I hope i'm taking the right path now.
I'm gona go for "Life In the Spirit Seminar" i think..anyone interested in joining me to rediscover your life? I invite you along with me. It's not jus for catholics only but for everyone.
It's about your whole life.
Suddenly, y0u reach one of the points in your life where you take a step back again and start to look at it from a third person's point of view.
You begin to wonder, what do i want to achieve, really? To be top in your field of expertise....but working in another field? With paper qualifications in this and that etc? "Jack of all trades, master of none"...What's the point? To settle down at a certain age, hopefully, and not slog it out for the rest of your life to feed your family and get caught up in the viscious circle of not spending time with your beloved wife and kids? Now i definitely don't want that to happen to me.
How about retiring early and being debt-free, being able to provide for my family without compromising time spent with them? Sounds too good to be true? Then again...whoever said retirement is about age?
How about having a common goal for all that we're doing? As in like, you alwz hear ppl saying, "Doing it for the greater glory of God"...cheem? Yea, my sentiments exactly. But perhaps that's the driving factor behind everything. The motivating factor.
When people talk about having dreams, they stop there. They dun realise and don't noe that it's the little things that we do that help us work towards our dreams. Like i said, the motivating factor. Mine? I picture myself seated on a sofa in a nice hse, chillin over some drinks with my best friends and my wife, with the kids runnin in the yard, playin with our golden retriever, havin fun. Being able to see to the needs of my parents in their old age. Being able to contribute regularly to a certain charity of our choice. Taking nice holidays with my wife and kids occasionally.
Perhaps that, coupled with "doing it all for the greater glory of God", is my motivating factor. I'm thinkin now, when the chips are down, which they will be at some point, will i still be strong enough to sit up and relook at my dream?
I believe, dreams can turn into reality. Power of the spoken word, power of the mind and will. What am i doing now to ensure a better life ahead? I hope i'm taking the right path now.
I'm gona go for "Life In the Spirit Seminar" i think..anyone interested in joining me to rediscover your life? I invite you along with me. It's not jus for catholics only but for everyone.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
The Search Is Over
How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while
Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses through some miracle of fate
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while
Now the miles stretch out behind me
Loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally struck
Like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle
Our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me
Show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain
The man I really am
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand, I could hear you whisper
The search is over, love was right before my eyes
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while
Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses through some miracle of fate
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while
Now the miles stretch out behind me
Loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally struck
Like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle
Our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me
Show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain
The man I really am
I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand, I could hear you whisper
The search is over, love was right before my eyes
Sunday, May 06, 2007
1st week of holidays
26th April
Hit the gym immediately after my last paper. Realised that my brain muscles had grown so much during the exam period relative to the other parts of my body =P Following that, had a nice dip in the NTU pool. lol. I was lucky to be there early, cz around 5.30pm, it turned into somewhat like South China Sea instead. DOTAed. Was about to sleep when toon's friend jio-ed KTV. So KTV it was...at midnite till closing time at Lot1, followed by supper at Ah mei's at railmall. Back to hall at 5.30am.
27th April
Met up with ching, shir and ade at holland v for dinner. Pretty nice catch up session after so long. Crispy roasted chicken, deep-fried silver fish and ee-fu noodles at crystal jade kitchen. Dessert was supposed to be gelare's but it was under renovation so had 2 x Ben & Jerry's pint from cold storage instead haha.
28th April
Job-hunt day. Mark's & Spencer were hiring but pay was $5/hour, 6day-week, 8-hour shift. Decided against it. Everyone was busy. Most of the boys were with their girls (almost the whole gang is attached now), so paul went home for lunch. Met up with zh, mikey, wang and mich for dinner at holland v. Sat at coffeeshop fo a couple of beers. Then we were off to liquid kitchen for more. It was 30% off regular price of any item whenever a goal was scored, and Man Utd were comin back from 2-0 down against Everton, so we went on a spree. Watched the Pool game but it was expected they'd field a weakened side. (it paid off eventually in mid-week). After tt, we were joined by js and we were off to mustafa. Walked around, spent an hour at the toy dept, and there was this toy parrot which cld talk back at whatever you talked to it. So u noe... we said "f*%# you" and it went like "f*%# you, f*%# you, f*%# you". Then it's voice changed. Damn, it was freaky lol. Then we saw this water massage machine where u wldn get wet. So we 'opened number' to decide who gets to make a decision of who goes under the machine. The decision was with wang and he chose me. Bad choice. He shd've taken it for himself! It was $10 for 10min. We all chipped in and i sorta became a public display as the machine was right in the middle of mustafa. =P Retired at 3am.
2nd May
Met up with NAGA at JP for spidey3. My hair's getting quite long i realised. So i decided
to experiment a little. Alrite dun comment =P. I know i look like chow yuen fatt or smth heh. Oh well, it was an experiment.. Received queer stares mainly from secondary school kids. At night, it was phuture/mambo with zh, wang, mich and matt. Man, if someone was drunk that nite, i dun think he cld tell the difference. The songs they played were too similar. I think i prefer mambo with all the happy cheery action songs lol. Mambo-ed/phutured till closing time.
3rd May
Awoke with a slight headache. Must've been the AK47 we had the nite b4. Was strong but bleah. Met Rai at 12noon. Looking better each day babe! Got caught in the rain a little but survived. Then we ta-baoed BK into the cinema. Supposed to have the show we wanted but there wasn't. So ended up with 'Wild Hogs' instead. I'm finally stretching my legs in town after several months! Went library to search for HTML books but cldn find. haiz. Then rai left for tuition whilst i met up with the boys at js' for our bbq get-together. Superb job in getting the fire started guys. This time it was booze-free. So no spelling-mikey or any other high dudes that nite lol.
4th May
There was supposed to be an orientation around school of ADM at 10am for prospective models but the prof pang-sehed us. Another prof said she cldn access her email blah blah blah..so i woke up at 8.30am on a rainy, sleepy day at home to travel down to NTU for nothin. Then there was this interview i went with zh, yongjie and their 2 frens in town. Did you know the yellow building in between somerset MRT station and the building with California Fitness is called Orchard Shopping Centre? I bet u didn't. Oh yeah, the interview was for camp instructors. Children's Techonology Workshop they called it. Didn't land the job. Had Suki Sushi buffet at cine for lunch. I wondered how many plates of salmon sashimi we had in total. Everything we ordered was in portions of 2. Oh well, dun ever mess with 5 hungry boys at buffets. I think the management knows, as our orders were slowed down. Maybe now he has our photos on the 'banned list'. =P
5th May
Morning at gym at pine and then swam. Wasn't much to do this sat evening.
6th May
Life as per normal. DOTA!! 1 game before i sleep.
Signing off.
Hit the gym immediately after my last paper. Realised that my brain muscles had grown so much during the exam period relative to the other parts of my body =P Following that, had a nice dip in the NTU pool. lol. I was lucky to be there early, cz around 5.30pm, it turned into somewhat like South China Sea instead. DOTAed. Was about to sleep when toon's friend jio-ed KTV. So KTV it was...at midnite till closing time at Lot1, followed by supper at Ah mei's at railmall. Back to hall at 5.30am.
27th April
Met up with ching, shir and ade at holland v for dinner. Pretty nice catch up session after so long. Crispy roasted chicken, deep-fried silver fish and ee-fu noodles at crystal jade kitchen. Dessert was supposed to be gelare's but it was under renovation so had 2 x Ben & Jerry's pint from cold storage instead haha.
28th April
Job-hunt day. Mark's & Spencer were hiring but pay was $5/hour, 6day-week, 8-hour shift. Decided against it. Everyone was busy. Most of the boys were with their girls (almost the whole gang is attached now), so paul went home for lunch. Met up with zh, mikey, wang and mich for dinner at holland v. Sat at coffeeshop fo a couple of beers. Then we were off to liquid kitchen for more. It was 30% off regular price of any item whenever a goal was scored, and Man Utd were comin back from 2-0 down against Everton, so we went on a spree. Watched the Pool game but it was expected they'd field a weakened side. (it paid off eventually in mid-week). After tt, we were joined by js and we were off to mustafa. Walked around, spent an hour at the toy dept, and there was this toy parrot which cld talk back at whatever you talked to it. So u noe... we said "f*%# you" and it went like "f*%# you, f*%# you, f*%# you". Then it's voice changed. Damn, it was freaky lol. Then we saw this water massage machine where u wldn get wet. So we 'opened number' to decide who gets to make a decision of who goes under the machine. The decision was with wang and he chose me. Bad choice. He shd've taken it for himself! It was $10 for 10min. We all chipped in and i sorta became a public display as the machine was right in the middle of mustafa. =P Retired at 3am.
2nd May
Met up with NAGA at JP for spidey3. My hair's getting quite long i realised. So i decided
to experiment a little. Alrite dun comment =P. I know i look like chow yuen fatt or smth heh. Oh well, it was an experiment.. Received queer stares mainly from secondary school kids. At night, it was phuture/mambo with zh, wang, mich and matt. Man, if someone was drunk that nite, i dun think he cld tell the difference. The songs they played were too similar. I think i prefer mambo with all the happy cheery action songs lol. Mambo-ed/phutured till closing time.3rd May
Awoke with a slight headache. Must've been the AK47 we had the nite b4. Was strong but bleah. Met Rai at 12noon. Looking better each day babe! Got caught in the rain a little but survived. Then we ta-baoed BK into the cinema. Supposed to have the show we wanted but there wasn't. So ended up with 'Wild Hogs' instead. I'm finally stretching my legs in town after several months! Went library to search for HTML books but cldn find. haiz. Then rai left for tuition whilst i met up with the boys at js' for our bbq get-together. Superb job in getting the fire started guys. This time it was booze-free. So no spelling-mikey or any other high dudes that nite lol.
4th MayThere was supposed to be an orientation around school of ADM at 10am for prospective models but the prof pang-sehed us. Another prof said she cldn access her email blah blah blah..so i woke up at 8.30am on a rainy, sleepy day at home to travel down to NTU for nothin. Then there was this interview i went with zh, yongjie and their 2 frens in town. Did you know the yellow building in between somerset MRT station and the building with California Fitness is called Orchard Shopping Centre? I bet u didn't. Oh yeah, the interview was for camp instructors. Children's Techonology Workshop they called it. Didn't land the job. Had Suki Sushi buffet at cine for lunch. I wondered how many plates of salmon sashimi we had in total. Everything we ordered was in portions of 2. Oh well, dun ever mess with 5 hungry boys at buffets. I think the management knows, as our orders were slowed down. Maybe now he has our photos on the 'banned list'. =P
5th May
Morning at gym at pine and then swam. Wasn't much to do this sat evening.
6th May
Life as per normal. DOTA!! 1 game before i sleep.
Signing off.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Yay holidays
My revised things-to-do-now-that-exams-are-over-list
1. DOTA
2. Mahjong
3. Learn HTML
4. Teach fellow altar-servers maths
5. Soccer
6. Slack at beach
7. Slack in town (yes i've only been ard boon lay and home)
8. Get a job
9. Holiday overseas
10. Exercise regularly
11. Eat at crystal jade with ching (ching this is for u =P)
12. Practice magic
13. Sort music files on computer
14. Clean hall room
1. DOTA
2. Mahjong
3. Learn HTML
4. Teach fellow altar-servers maths
5. Soccer
6. Slack at beach
7. Slack in town (yes i've only been ard boon lay and home)
8. Get a job
9. Holiday overseas
10. Exercise regularly
11. Eat at crystal jade with ching (ching this is for u =P)
12. Practice magic
13. Sort music files on computer
14. Clean hall room
Friday, April 20, 2007
I Miss You.
You wrote:
Think back to the day when you first laid eyes on her. You found urself charmed by the way she talks, the way she dresses herself to show off her best features and the way she embraces life with her laughter. It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" has suddenly developed to draw you closer to her. You two then began to meet regularly, and you discover more things tt you admire about her. Her clever ideas, her healthy values and the way she stands up for you when others doubt you. You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, but a very gd friend. It is often during this period tt a boy and a gal will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. After all, the kind of wonderful experience you've between each other can only become even better if it develops into a romantic relationship. In other words, the feeling is really unique - no one else seems able to replace her in your heart. So both of you agree to go be together & work even harder on the relationship. u "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles.
When u Forget The Fundamentals, however, at some point in ur relationship, u forgot how it all began. You start to take your partner for granted. Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? Why doesn't she dress herself more trendily? Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes? Is she really the one for you? To be fair to yourself and to her, take some time to reflect on your "love memory". The "love memory' contains all the reasons tt u fell in love with her right from Day One. It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting & loving her. Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. Did you like her unusual fashion sense tt makes her stand out from the crowd? Who I Want to Meet: Right. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her now that she is your girlfriend? Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us. You have forgotten the reasons you admired her during the friendship phase. Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage. As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations abouther. These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk.
The Secret Of Strong Relationships, a healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, follows a step-by-step development. You can't possibly become part of a couple if you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break the rule and plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of those couples can go the distance? So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, don't give up without checking on your "love memory".
Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love.
I miss your voice
I miss your smile
I miss your touch
I miss your laughter
I miss running my fingers thru your hair
I miss looking deep into your eyes
I miss the way you look at me
I miss holding your hand
I miss you whispering 'I miss you'
I miss your child-like innocence
I miss your unspoken gentleness
I miss your silent sweetness
I miss your tender lovingness
I miss your unassuming thoughtfulness
I miss your wisdom
I miss your words of encouragement
I miss the many times we had meals together at your table
I miss the many times we spent window-shopping at things we love
I miss the hours just watching tv on the couch and holding you
I miss the days we spent studying together
I miss the evenings we walked home up that slope
I miss the nights at your doorstep where we couldn't bear to say goodbye
I miss the countless waves of goodbyes we had at your window
I miss those runs i had to make to catch the last bus home
I miss those late nite calls
I miss those cards in which you wrote special somethings
I miss being there for you when you needed me
I miss you being there for me when I needed you
I miss you so bad it hurts. Everyday.
Think back to the day when you first laid eyes on her. You found urself charmed by the way she talks, the way she dresses herself to show off her best features and the way she embraces life with her laughter. It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" has suddenly developed to draw you closer to her. You two then began to meet regularly, and you discover more things tt you admire about her. Her clever ideas, her healthy values and the way she stands up for you when others doubt you. You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, but a very gd friend. It is often during this period tt a boy and a gal will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. After all, the kind of wonderful experience you've between each other can only become even better if it develops into a romantic relationship. In other words, the feeling is really unique - no one else seems able to replace her in your heart. So both of you agree to go be together & work even harder on the relationship. u "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles.
When u Forget The Fundamentals, however, at some point in ur relationship, u forgot how it all began. You start to take your partner for granted. Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? Why doesn't she dress herself more trendily? Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes? Is she really the one for you? To be fair to yourself and to her, take some time to reflect on your "love memory". The "love memory' contains all the reasons tt u fell in love with her right from Day One. It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting & loving her. Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. Did you like her unusual fashion sense tt makes her stand out from the crowd? Who I Want to Meet: Right. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her now that she is your girlfriend? Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us. You have forgotten the reasons you admired her during the friendship phase. Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage. As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations abouther. These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk.
The Secret Of Strong Relationships, a healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, follows a step-by-step development. You can't possibly become part of a couple if you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break the rule and plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of those couples can go the distance? So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, don't give up without checking on your "love memory".
Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love.
I miss your voice
I miss your smile
I miss your touch
I miss your laughter
I miss running my fingers thru your hair
I miss looking deep into your eyes
I miss the way you look at me
I miss holding your hand
I miss you whispering 'I miss you'
I miss your child-like innocence
I miss your unspoken gentleness
I miss your silent sweetness
I miss your tender lovingness
I miss your unassuming thoughtfulness
I miss your wisdom
I miss your words of encouragement
I miss the many times we had meals together at your table
I miss the many times we spent window-shopping at things we love
I miss the hours just watching tv on the couch and holding you
I miss the days we spent studying together
I miss the evenings we walked home up that slope
I miss the nights at your doorstep where we couldn't bear to say goodbye
I miss the countless waves of goodbyes we had at your window
I miss those runs i had to make to catch the last bus home
I miss those late nite calls
I miss those cards in which you wrote special somethings
I miss being there for you when you needed me
I miss you being there for me when I needed you
I miss you so bad it hurts. Everyday.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
My things-to-do-after-exam-list
1. DOTA
2. Mahjong
3. Learn how to handle HTML nonsense
4. Jam a full proper song
5. Teach fellow altar-servers maths
6. Soccer
7. Slack at the beach
8. Slack in some coffee-joint/aircon place in town
9. Search for a decent-paying part-time job
10. Exercise. Regularly.
11. Holiday
12. (supposed to be something more meaningful here..still thinking)
2. Mahjong
3. Learn how to handle HTML nonsense
4. Jam a full proper song
5. Teach fellow altar-servers maths
6. Soccer
7. Slack at the beach
8. Slack in some coffee-joint/aircon place in town
9. Search for a decent-paying part-time job
10. Exercise. Regularly.
11. Holiday
12. (supposed to be something more meaningful here..still thinking)
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
No to emo. Can't help thinking.
Ok i ain't emo let me stress that.
It's jus that, amidst all the exams and studies, the fun, the parties, the soccer, the beer, the mahjong, the these and the thats...when u thought u've finally moved on, somehow your sub-conscious rings a bell in your head when u least expect it to, knocking the past back into your thick, numb skull. What an ass. The angel's on your left telling you to move on, the devil's on the other side giving you feelings of a different sort (or is it the other way round?). Dug out old photos. Those real hard-copy ones u can feel in your hand and which somehow seems non-existent anymore due to digital cameras. Man, the feeling of looking at hard-copy photos ain't the same. U fill me?
Maths paper was a disaster, i felt, but i'm not gona KB here cz it ain't worth my time man. Move on, español is up next. Physics will be over by el fin de semana (the weekend).
Listening to Hokkien song (cik ki sio ho sua - one small unbrella) on toon's computer now.
It seems to me you've moved on. Please don't keep me guessing. I've lost you before. And I'm afraid I'll never have you back again. Are we meant to be together again or apart?
It's jus that, amidst all the exams and studies, the fun, the parties, the soccer, the beer, the mahjong, the these and the thats...when u thought u've finally moved on, somehow your sub-conscious rings a bell in your head when u least expect it to, knocking the past back into your thick, numb skull. What an ass. The angel's on your left telling you to move on, the devil's on the other side giving you feelings of a different sort (or is it the other way round?). Dug out old photos. Those real hard-copy ones u can feel in your hand and which somehow seems non-existent anymore due to digital cameras. Man, the feeling of looking at hard-copy photos ain't the same. U fill me?
Maths paper was a disaster, i felt, but i'm not gona KB here cz it ain't worth my time man. Move on, español is up next. Physics will be over by el fin de semana (the weekend).
Listening to Hokkien song (cik ki sio ho sua - one small unbrella) on toon's computer now.
It seems to me you've moved on. Please don't keep me guessing. I've lost you before. And I'm afraid I'll never have you back again. Are we meant to be together again or apart?
Saturday, April 14, 2007
The Exultet - Easter Vigil Prayer
Rejoice, heavenly powers! Sing, choirs of angels! Exult, all creation around God's throne! Jesus Christ, our King, is risen! Sound the trumpet of salvation!
Rejoice, O earth, in shining splendor, radiant in the brightness of your King! Christ has conquered! Glory fills you! Darkness vanishes for ever!
Rejoice, O Mother Church! Exult in glory! The risen Savior shines upon you! Let this place resound with joy, echoing the mighty song of all God's people!
My dearest friends, standing with me in this holy light, join me in asking God for mercy, hat he may give his unworthy minister grace to sing his Easter praises.
The Lord be with you. (And also with you)
Lift up your hearts. (We lift them up to the Lord)
Let us give thanks to the Lord our God. (It is right to give him thanks and praise).
It is truly right that with full hearts and minds and voices we should praise the unseen God, the all-powerful Father, and his only Son, our Lord Jesus Christ.
For Christ has ransomed us with his blood, and paid for us the price of Adam's sin to our eternal Father!
This is our passover feast, when Christ, the true Lamb, is slain, whose blood consecrates the homes of all believers.
This is the night when first you saved our fathers: you freed the people of Israel from their slavery and led them dry-shod through the sea.
This is the night when the pillar of fire destroyed the darkness of sin.
This is night when Christians everywhere, washed clean of sin and freed from all defilement, are restored to grace and grow together in holiness.
This is the night when Jesus Christ broke the chains of death and rose triumphant from the grave.
What good would life have been to us, had Christ not come as our Redeemer? Father, how wonderful your care for us! How boundless your merciful love! To ransom a slave you gave away your Son.
O happy fault, O necessary sin of Adam, which gained for us so great a Redeemer!
Most blessed of all nights, chosen by God to see Christ rising from the dead!
Of this night scripture says: "The night will be as clear as day: it will become my light, my joy."
The power of this holy night dispels all evil, ashes guilt away, restores lost innocence, brings mourners joy; it casts out hatred, brings us peace,and humbles earthly pride.
Night truly blessed when heaven is wedded to earth and man is reconciled with God!
Therefore, heavenly Father, in the joy of this night, receive our evening sacrifice of praise, your Church's solemn offering. Accept this Easter candle, a flame divided but undimmed, a pillar of fire that glows to the honor of God.
Let it mingle with the lights of heaven and continue bravely burning to dispel the darkness of this night!
May the Morning Star which never sets find this flame still burning: Christ, that Morning Star, who came back from the dead, and shed his peaceful light on all mankind, your Son, who lives and reigns for ever and ever. Amen.
Rejoice, O earth, in shining splendor, radiant in the brightness of your King! Christ has conquered! Glory fills you! Darkness vanishes for ever!
Rejoice, O Mother Church! Exult in glory! The risen Savior shines upon you! Let this place resound with joy, echoing the mighty song of all God's people!
My dearest friends, standing with me in this holy light, join me in asking God for mercy, hat he may give his unworthy minister grace to sing his Easter praises.
The Lord be with you. (And also with you)
Lift up your hearts. (We lift them up to the Lord)
Let us give thanks to the Lord our God. (It is right to give him thanks and praise).
It is truly right that with full hearts and minds and voices we should praise the unseen God, the all-powerful Father, and his only Son, our Lord Jesus Christ.
For Christ has ransomed us with his blood, and paid for us the price of Adam's sin to our eternal Father!
This is our passover feast, when Christ, the true Lamb, is slain, whose blood consecrates the homes of all believers.
This is the night when first you saved our fathers: you freed the people of Israel from their slavery and led them dry-shod through the sea.
This is the night when the pillar of fire destroyed the darkness of sin.
This is night when Christians everywhere, washed clean of sin and freed from all defilement, are restored to grace and grow together in holiness.
This is the night when Jesus Christ broke the chains of death and rose triumphant from the grave.
What good would life have been to us, had Christ not come as our Redeemer? Father, how wonderful your care for us! How boundless your merciful love! To ransom a slave you gave away your Son.
O happy fault, O necessary sin of Adam, which gained for us so great a Redeemer!
Most blessed of all nights, chosen by God to see Christ rising from the dead!
Of this night scripture says: "The night will be as clear as day: it will become my light, my joy."
The power of this holy night dispels all evil, ashes guilt away, restores lost innocence, brings mourners joy; it casts out hatred, brings us peace,and humbles earthly pride.
Night truly blessed when heaven is wedded to earth and man is reconciled with God!
Therefore, heavenly Father, in the joy of this night, receive our evening sacrifice of praise, your Church's solemn offering. Accept this Easter candle, a flame divided but undimmed, a pillar of fire that glows to the honor of God.
Let it mingle with the lights of heaven and continue bravely burning to dispel the darkness of this night!
May the Morning Star which never sets find this flame still burning: Christ, that Morning Star, who came back from the dead, and shed his peaceful light on all mankind, your Son, who lives and reigns for ever and ever. Amen.
Monday, April 02, 2007
30th March - A Date to Remember
This time last year, i was celebrating the bithday of a loved one.
This year, i am mourning the loss of one.
2 contrasting events depiciting me the two extremes of life.
On monday, the call came in. The news hit me, but it hadn't sunk in. After all, he had been suffering for a few years, part of me was relieved the Lord finally allowed him to return Home. And i was happy that i did not put off my visiting him only a few months ago despite school taking up so much of my time. Otherwise, i would have never gotten the chance to hug him again.
On monday, mum said it was alrite to stay in sch to study till thurs nite. By tuesday, i jus didn't have the concentration and discipline to do so. I was ghosting through tutorial rooms and lecture theatres. On wednesday, i finally made the trip down to his wake. Was holding back tears when i saw him lying in that wooden box. But he had peace on his face. That was comforting. Said a prayer. Went back home that nite, had to drag myself to lessons the next day.
During the service on thursday, cousins delivered beautiful eulogies. Beautiful memories of him. Sigh. Kept vigil till friday morn...
...as the coffin made its way to the cremation room, daughters and sons, granddaughters and grandsons said their last goodbyes through the viewing hall. Heart-wrenching it was. As his great-grandson Matthew said in his 4-year-old child-innocence, "byebye kong kong".
Overheard in the bus back to my grandmother's place: "Aunty Li, why u all so sad just now? no need to be sad ok?" That was from Matthew.
He was right. My grandfather is in good hands now. Finally, his time on this temporary place called earth has come to an end. His time somewhere far beyond and better in God's presence is just beginning.
Afterthoughts:
It is true that at a funeral, it is a gathering of long-lost family members. I sensed the closeness of family ties not felt at events like chinese new year or whatever else. I guessed looking down from above, my grandfather must be smiling.
Sometimes, amidst all the sorrow and tears, we fail to see the silver lining that a 4-year-old sees. Because i know the Lord takes cares of His children, even though sadness fills me, in my heart i can still smile.
Life is just a temporary assignment on earth. When it's all said and done, ashes and dust we return to. For his assignment, my grandfather passed with flying colours.
"He had fought the good fight, finished the race, kept the faith. God will reward him the crown of righteousness... ...and not only to him, but also to all who have longed for his appearing"
(2 Timothy 4: 6-9)
We love you 'kong kong'.
This year, i am mourning the loss of one.
2 contrasting events depiciting me the two extremes of life.
On monday, the call came in. The news hit me, but it hadn't sunk in. After all, he had been suffering for a few years, part of me was relieved the Lord finally allowed him to return Home. And i was happy that i did not put off my visiting him only a few months ago despite school taking up so much of my time. Otherwise, i would have never gotten the chance to hug him again.
On monday, mum said it was alrite to stay in sch to study till thurs nite. By tuesday, i jus didn't have the concentration and discipline to do so. I was ghosting through tutorial rooms and lecture theatres. On wednesday, i finally made the trip down to his wake. Was holding back tears when i saw him lying in that wooden box. But he had peace on his face. That was comforting. Said a prayer. Went back home that nite, had to drag myself to lessons the next day.
During the service on thursday, cousins delivered beautiful eulogies. Beautiful memories of him. Sigh. Kept vigil till friday morn...
...as the coffin made its way to the cremation room, daughters and sons, granddaughters and grandsons said their last goodbyes through the viewing hall. Heart-wrenching it was. As his great-grandson Matthew said in his 4-year-old child-innocence, "byebye kong kong".
Overheard in the bus back to my grandmother's place: "Aunty Li, why u all so sad just now? no need to be sad ok?" That was from Matthew.
He was right. My grandfather is in good hands now. Finally, his time on this temporary place called earth has come to an end. His time somewhere far beyond and better in God's presence is just beginning.
Afterthoughts:
It is true that at a funeral, it is a gathering of long-lost family members. I sensed the closeness of family ties not felt at events like chinese new year or whatever else. I guessed looking down from above, my grandfather must be smiling.
Sometimes, amidst all the sorrow and tears, we fail to see the silver lining that a 4-year-old sees. Because i know the Lord takes cares of His children, even though sadness fills me, in my heart i can still smile.
Life is just a temporary assignment on earth. When it's all said and done, ashes and dust we return to. For his assignment, my grandfather passed with flying colours.
"He had fought the good fight, finished the race, kept the faith. God will reward him the crown of righteousness... ...and not only to him, but also to all who have longed for his appearing"
(2 Timothy 4: 6-9)
We love you 'kong kong'.
Monday, March 26, 2007
开不了口让你知道...
就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道
安静的听你撒娇看你睡着一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道
安静的听你撒娇看你睡着一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我
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