So many things, so little time. Random thoughts.

Yea, it's an irony. But i'm not talking about these 3 months of holidays before crazy school life starts again.

It's about your whole life.

Suddenly, y0u reach one of the points in your life where you take a step back again and start to look at it from a third person's point of view.

You begin to wonder, what do i want to achieve, really? To be top in your field of expertise....but working in another field? With paper qualifications in this and that etc? "Jack of all trades, master of none"...What's the point? To settle down at a certain age, hopefully, and not slog it out for the rest of your life to feed your family and get caught up in the viscious circle of not spending time with your beloved wife and kids? Now i definitely don't want that to happen to me.

How about retiring early and being debt-free, being able to provide for my family without compromising time spent with them? Sounds too good to be true? Then again...whoever said retirement is about age?

How about having a common goal for all that we're doing? As in like, you alwz hear ppl saying, "Doing it for the greater glory of God"...cheem? Yea, my sentiments exactly. But perhaps that's the driving factor behind everything. The motivating factor.

When people talk about having dreams, they stop there. They dun realise and don't noe that it's the little things that we do that help us work towards our dreams. Like i said, the motivating factor. Mine? I picture myself seated on a sofa in a nice hse, chillin over some drinks with my best friends and my wife, with the kids runnin in the yard, playin with our golden retriever, havin fun. Being able to see to the needs of my parents in their old age. Being able to contribute regularly to a certain charity of our choice. Taking nice holidays with my wife and kids occasionally.

Perhaps that, coupled with "doing it all for the greater glory of God", is my motivating factor. I'm thinkin now, when the chips are down, which they will be at some point, will i still be strong enough to sit up and relook at my dream?

I believe, dreams can turn into reality. Power of the spoken word, power of the mind and will. What am i doing now to ensure a better life ahead? I hope i'm taking the right path now.

I'm gona go for "Life In the Spirit Seminar" i think..anyone interested in joining me to rediscover your life? I invite you along with me. It's not jus for catholics only but for everyone.

The Search Is Over

How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses through some miracle of fate

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Now the miles stretch out behind me
Loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally struck
Like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you

Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle
Our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me
Show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain
The man I really am

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand, I could hear you whisper
The search is over, love was right before my eyes

1st week of holidays

26th April
Hit the gym immediately after my last paper. Realised that my brain muscles had grown so much during the exam period relative to the other parts of my body =P Following that, had a nice dip in the NTU pool. lol. I was lucky to be there early, cz around 5.30pm, it turned into somewhat like South China Sea instead. DOTAed. Was about to sleep when toon's friend jio-ed KTV. So KTV it was...at midnite till closing time at Lot1, followed by supper at Ah mei's at railmall. Back to hall at 5.30am.

27th April
Met up with ching, shir and ade at holland v for dinner. Pretty nice catch up session after so long. Crispy roasted chicken, deep-fried silver fish and ee-fu noodles at crystal jade kitchen. Dessert was supposed to be gelare's but it was under renovation so had 2 x Ben & Jerry's pint from cold storage instead haha.

28th April
Job-hunt day. Mark's & Spencer were hiring but pay was $5/hour, 6day-week, 8-hour shift. Decided against it. Everyone was busy. Most of the boys were with their girls (almost the whole gang is attached now), so paul went home for lunch. Met up with zh, mikey, wang and mich for dinner at holland v. Sat at coffeeshop fo a couple of beers. Then we were off to liquid kitchen for more. It was 30% off regular price of any item whenever a goal was scored, and Man Utd were comin back from 2-0 down against Everton, so we went on a spree. Watched the Pool game but it was expected they'd field a weakened side. (it paid off eventually in mid-week). After tt, we were joined by js and we were off to mustafa. Walked around, spent an hour at the toy dept, and there was this toy parrot which cld talk back at whatever you talked to it. So u noe... we said "f*%# you" and it went like "f*%# you, f*%# you, f*%# you". Then it's voice changed. Damn, it was freaky lol. Then we saw this water massage machine where u wldn get wet. So we 'opened number' to decide who gets to make a decision of who goes under the machine. The decision was with wang and he chose me. Bad choice. He shd've taken it for himself! It was $10 for 10min. We all chipped in and i sorta became a public display as the machine was right in the middle of mustafa. =P Retired at 3am.

2nd May
Met up with NAGA at JP for spidey3. My hair's getting quite long i realised. So i decided to experiment a little. Alrite dun comment =P. I know i look like chow yuen fatt or smth heh. Oh well, it was an experiment.. Received queer stares mainly from secondary school kids. At night, it was phuture/mambo with zh, wang, mich and matt. Man, if someone was drunk that nite, i dun think he cld tell the difference. The songs they played were too similar. I think i prefer mambo with all the happy cheery action songs lol. Mambo-ed/phutured till closing time.

3rd May
Awoke with a slight headache. Must've been the AK47 we had the nite b4. Was strong but bleah. Met Rai at 12noon. Looking better each day babe! Got caught in the rain a little but survived. Then we ta-baoed BK into the cinema. Supposed to have the show we wanted but there wasn't. So ended up with 'Wild Hogs' instead. I'm finally stretching my legs in town after several months! Went library to search for HTML books but cldn find. haiz. Then rai left for tuition whilst i met up with the boys at js' for our bbq get-together. Superb job in getting the fire started guys. This time it was booze-free. So no spelling-mikey or any other high dudes that nite lol.

4th May
There was supposed to be an orientation around school of ADM at 10am for prospective models but the prof pang-sehed us. Another prof said she cldn access her email blah blah blah..so i woke up at 8.30am on a rainy, sleepy day at home to travel down to NTU for nothin. Then there was this interview i went with zh, yongjie and their 2 frens in town. Did you know the yellow building in between somerset MRT station and the building with California Fitness is called Orchard Shopping Centre? I bet u didn't. Oh yeah, the interview was for camp instructors. Children's Techonology Workshop they called it. Didn't land the job. Had Suki Sushi buffet at cine for lunch. I wondered how many plates of salmon sashimi we had in total. Everything we ordered was in portions of 2. Oh well, dun ever mess with 5 hungry boys at buffets. I think the management knows, as our orders were slowed down. Maybe now he has our photos on the 'banned list'. =P

5th May
Morning at gym at pine and then swam. Wasn't much to do this sat evening.

6th May
Life as per normal. DOTA!! 1 game before i sleep.

Signing off.