More photos of 2006

St Aloysius Feast Day

Altarservers Retreat

Chalet '06

Some photos of 2006

Group Photos

MOS FHM top 100 party

Buddy Photos

Faces of SJI/NJ/NTU

Tioman Getaway

Post-Christmas Party at JS'

Bah-loo-koo

Suffering from swollen ankle thru Old Boys rugby game today at SJI =( but was glad to finally play a full real game after years! Hopefully can recover in time for IH which starts this saturday though=p

Christmas 2006

I think i'm getting old. I have to write down my schedule for each day for Christmas week cause i cannot remember wad i'll be having on a certain day!

Served 7pm Chinese Mass on Christmas Eve, went out awhile, served midnite Mass again, and then a little party with the altarservers at St. Luke's room. Wanted to go walawala's or eskibar with the ppl but everywhere was closing. Ended up having a joyride..and back to holland V at 4am for some snacks from 7-eleven. Next was trip to the cemetery at 5am. 2nd time to the cemetery at this hour. Drove Ian, Joshua, Benjamin, Reuben and Joan there lol. It was their first time. Went back to church at 7am to serve Mass at Dawn. Then breakfast at Macs Ridout Tea garden. Back home to sleep. Woke up at 4pm, went to Ian's hse for dinner. Damn shack. Though it was only 24 hours, it felt as if it was much longer than that haha.

Concussed at 10pm.

A Christmas Poem

Given if but one Christmas wish
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss
To hold your hand and never bid farewell
Say you still love me, i beg thee tell

Till the sun ceases to rise
Till the blind man sees, with his eyes
Till friend and foe stretch out their hands
I lay my life in His plans

-copyright-
-Paul Cheong-
-23rd Day of the 12th Month of the Year 2006 of the Lord-

tis the season to be spending...

I think the amount im spending in december may well exceed that of october and november combined. Oh how it sucks to restrict yourself from wad u do or eat because of $$$.

It's been raining non-stop for the past few days but it hasn deterred me from meeting up with my friends haha. Had a fun time time with my OG with whom we celebrated by buddy's birthday. Dinner was at JeJu some korean restaurant and MOS burger with Jac before that lol. Why am i not surprised at the amount i eat? heh. Oh well, had a great time with Jac (met u unexpectedly early lol) and my OG. Thanks guys for the company!

To one of my brothers: I'm returning soon man. I think u need to share your problems. We're kinda lost/confused/worried right now. Relax a little k? Dun let the turkeys get you down=)

The sun is up!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Crawling Back to You

"Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart,
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you"

MY week

At Pasir Ris with the Altarservers

Photowhores and Christmas lightings

1st Dec: Last paper finished at 1630h. Soccered from 1730h till 2130h. MJed from 2230h till next morn 0400h. Slept. Shiok.

2nd Dec: Home for lunch. DOTA-ed. Church altarservers meeting. DOTA-ed. Slept. Shiok.

3rd Dec: Served 7.30am Chinese Mass and 9.00am English Mass. Went to return and collect stuff from a friend. Encountered so much difficulty just to get back my stuff. oh well..Soccered from 1530h to 1730h @ Telok Blangah..Finally sum goalposts high enough for my 'wrath-of-paul' balls to enter...in the words of dear toon...OMGwtfBBQpwnk. haha. Dinnered with family.

4th Dec - 7th Dec: Chalet with the altarservers. Except for tues nite when we went to celebrate toon's birthday at billy bombers. Ate chic n ribs. Finished the meat portion but didn't finish the potato salad! Damn! I lost. One of the few times. tsktsk. Must train to eat again lol. Watched Tenacious D - The Pick of Destiny.

7th Dec: 0900h-Rugby training. 1st in a longlonglong time. Wasn really a shiong one as it was meant for the beginners who have never played rugby before. Oh well. 1700h-Track training. 1st in a longlonglong time as well. 1930h-Darts training. Quite an OK day...but considering i didn't sleep the night before.....

8th Dec: Jammed in the morning with Toon. Played some instrumental stuff though i didn't know exactly wad i was playing. Just went with the flow..Toon played/created/modified some chords/riffs, i just played along. But was good haha. Lunch was Can2. Dabao-ed chicken cutlet for toon who had to rush back to hall to reg subjects. DOTA-ed the whole afternoon, darts training in the evening. Dinner with zh, guan and guang @ HV. Then drank some Heineken and played a few games. Was a nice chill out session. Just relaxing. Not worrying about the time.

Ok...basically just wanna see my week is filled up with activities now that the exams are over..

Gonna DOTA now...getting bad at it alr...must train up! DOTA freak!

Reminiscences

Had nice dinner with family today =) Talked about lotsa stuff. Things that i wouldn't normally share with them. Felt so good. Think as we grow older, perhaps we'd feel more comforatble talking to our parents about certain issues.

Sigh, to a lost friend: to send or not to send a birthday card to you? Sent i did, and i'm kinda hoping that if it is not met with enthusiasm, at least not disgust.

Sigh. to another: Now you're holidaying in Aussie. Miss those times we shared. Alot. Suddenly it all comes back to me. You're comin home soon. Guess a few months can really work miracles and change people's thoughts and maturity level. Ok, i wouldn't dare say i've totally matured, but at least i now understand a lot of things you once felt. I look back and realise how patient you've been towards me after all. I'm glad we did not part with a grudge; we did not right? at least i know you still talk to me.

"If only i could turn back time...If only i had said what i still hide..." - Aqua(Turn Back Time)

It's all over

It's all over.

Everything that could have happen happened. Now it's time to sit back and re-evaluate situations and Life itself. Suddenly the world seems a much different place to live in. It's hard to explain in words how i feel.

Yes yes..it's a little too early to sum up the year...but i'd rather start now...I'm glad Christmas is approaching. My favourite time of the year. New Year as well.

Sigh. 2006-A year of lost friendships. Close friends. Friends you could once laugh and joke with and share problems with at the same time when the need arises as well.
2006-A year full of transits...in all sense of the word. Church matters, army, school, friendships, relationships...

"How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes, I've got nowhere to run, the night goes on as I'm fading away..."-Simple Plan.

Practically sums up how screwed up I am with handling matters.

Does everybody need friends? I guess some need them more than others. No matter how independent you are, friends are vital in your life.

I need friends. I guess I chased some of them away. Rash actions, foolish reactions, stupid decisions. They come back to haunt me.

DOTA. Temporary runaway from the real world. Back to reality. Goodnite.

Happy advanced birthday Nic.

Too early too late

"I find her standing in front of the church,
the only place in town where i didn't search.
She looked so happy in her wedding dress..
but she's cryin' while she's saying this:

Boy, i miss your kisses,
all the time but this is,
25 minutes too late..
Though u've travelled so far,
Boy, im sorry u are,
25 minutes too late..."

I hope i'll never be in this position...

toon the computer expert

Thanx toon for making the comments box for me lol... and i realise my words are very cramped up together and dull... so here's a little colour =)

Can't concentrate

So many things on my mind right now, i just can't seem to focus. I feel this is where life starts and play ends. Gota accomplish what i set out to do from the beginning. It's fucking difficult. I look around me and i see i dun have anything at the moment. I begin to worry, to wonder about the future. I dun even know how i'll be coping come end of the year. I think i have begun to realise. I aint gona lead a selfish life. I want people around me to be happy, and i'd do more than anything to see them so. Just knowing my loved ones and frens are doing well makes me feel a much happier person. Sometimes tho, the difficult part is the situation is not in our hands. We can't fucking do no shit to help them feel better. and the feeling bloody hell sucks. It's like you're made to feel fucking useless. Sometimes i wish i was a doctor, sometimes a mind-reader. And then u have all the 'if onlys' that start flooding your already dense brain from all the fucking sch work and stuff...wondering if u have a place in hall next sem, wondering how and where u gona study properly if u get kicked outa hall..wondering how u gona pay ur loans and get a job when you graduate. Now the economy's doing well...but we all noe the economic cycle...im jus praying it doesn hit my batch when we graduate..i've never kbed so much on my blog cz i tot i shd keep it clean..but oh well...wtf..it's MY boring black blog...nothing fanciful, popups, colours etc..stupid lab report still gota do..maths quiz tmr..computing quiz thurs..econs quiz next mon..oral presentation for effective communication...sumone sedate me now..amidst all these..i know im still sane sumhow...served Mass after such a long time..felt so good and aware that God is keeping me sane and all these so-called hardtimes are just temporary. After all, our rewards are in heaven, not this place called Earth, where it'll get swallowed up by the Sun in 5.4billion years time or hit by sum random asteriod from Kuipter's belt in between now and 5.4billion years time...ah..i need to punch smth..can we hang punching bags in our hall? so much angst in me..i wana keep my sanity..maybe the SJI motto will carry me through...Pray and work..ora et labora...praying alone wun work if we dun help ourselves and working alone doesn help to keep u sane from the worldly pressures..God all i ask is for peace and people not to suffer...i dun ask for wealth nor riches..Use me as your instrument..One day i shall find out your purpose for me in this life..Forgive me Lord for i am but a sinner.

differentiation and integration

ok, so none of us remember how to do them :X im kinda lazy to blog nowadays anyway. Brudderswiththeanswers are up and running. im slpy. zZzZzZzZ. Seriously, we should treasure life. It's difficult to understand why we hafta suffer so much at times. Emotionally, mentally, physically..but faith will bring carry you thru...believe that He still exists and He never abandons you no matter how bleak situations may seem. When all is dark and gloomy, wait in hope for the new light. It will come..Someday we'll know the reason why. Hold on; never let go. Trust. Pray. Difficult, but all it takes is faith..Im glad you lived to see the next day everyday..Thank you for being alive.

Sigh. Differentiate "sin (2x)" anyone?

The Ultimate Love Song

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

T . A . G .

My life:

10 years ago:

1. Was at the soon-to-be-gone Ghim Moh Primary..had transferred from De La Salle in primary2. Lived next to home=)
2. Was an overweight sprinter haha
3. Forever aiming to top the level
4. Couldnt care less about girls
5. Damn aggressive.

5 years ago:

1. Tried entering RJ after 'O's...never did..but i guess it was a blessing..wouldn have the company of frens and the special people i meet eventually in one way or another=)
2. Miss SJI... still missing SJI !!
3. Underwent 2 operations after 'O's for bones broken 2 years ago haha...left index finger; right scapphoid (wrist)
4. No direction in life. Still wondering wad i wanted to do.
5. Single, available, unwanted.

1 year ago:

1. Many people marvelled at my 'job' in army...Storeman at CCODTT aka CMPB...(why does CMPB need a storeman?)
2. Still a virgin at the clubbing scene
3. Still smoke-free even with army influence
4. Was in love
5. Looking fwd to uni only so i could get away from my mundane storeman lifestyle and work towards my PhD.

5 songs i know the words to:
(There're alot actually)

1. I'll never break your heart - Backstreet Boys
2. Hallowed be Thy Name - Iron Maiden
3. Stan - Eminem
4. The Unforgiven II - Metallica
5 . ' An Jing' - Jay Chou

5 snacks i love i wish i could eat:
(Again, alot actually)

1. Chwee Kueh
2. Bak Chor Mee Pok
3. 'Quinta' pizza from 'Spizza'
4. Tiger Prawns
5. Asam Chicken

5 places i'd run away to:

1. Hostel
2. Cathedral of The Good Shepherd
3. My Darling's Home
4. Home
5. Holland V

5 things i'd never wear:

1. man-thongs
2. skirts
3. low-cut man's t-shirt (those v-neck gay-looking type)
4. fur-coat
5. lipstick

5 favourite tv-shows:

1. Fear Factor
2. EPL matches
3. C.S.I.
4. Amazing Race
5. Spongebob Squarepants, Classic Power Rangers, Road-Runner, Looney Tunes...ok u get the idea

5 greatest joys:

1. My family
2. My (from SJI-NJC-NTU) brothers
3. Soccer
4. Food
5. (for the future)my wife and children

Antibiotics, Weekend, PhD

I think my body's sensitive to antibiotics man...Woke up this morning with patches of rash on my skin after taking sum crap antibiotic which was supposed to help me reduce my cough=P oh well...Mass at cathedral in the evening was awesome again. The priest was good, the music was soothing, the sermon was apt. The company was excellent. In all, a perfect sunday. Week 4 of school is starting..almost halfway thru the 1st sem...fast eh? Wana get my degree asap...Masters' and PhD perhaps? well the vision's not too far away now...just gota make it a reality. To all who's laughing at me in the past and now...i'll have the last laugh... Aint gona let myself or my loved ones down. Not anymore...

Drugged

I did it. I drugged myself, albeit accidentally, with cough medicine. Went to bed at 9pm feeling damn unconscious and weak =P. I think i overdosed lol. I'm still craving for my BakChor Meepok! hvn seen a proper noodle stall in NTU so far yet..any1 can reccommend to me? need to satisfy my craving *slurp*. Sigh, maths lecture is behind tutorial schedule..forcing me to read up lect notes in advance...way on advance. wad's with matrices man? cant normal human beings just do things the normal way? i supp these ppl who invented matrices are square, literally, heh. oh well, the medicine's kicking in again, nitez ppl...1 more day to book out day haha...

Question: Wad's better than soccer?

The people you love and who love you in return, the friends who stand by you and whom you can lend a listening ear to. No soccer game? No fret. Spending quality time matters. Im grateful and happy...

Sigh, my tutorial classmate from China has done all the maths tutorials for this semester already.*sweat* No matter, at my own time and pace...

Bro, thanks for the strong words of encouragement. I knew u'd support me. It's heartening, really =) and bro, dun be discouraged. Karma happens, She'll come along...

Trials That Come My Way

"I thank you Lord
For the trials that come my way
In the way i can grow each day
As i let u lead

And i thank you Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way i am
To put my human nature down
And let the spirit take control of all i do

Cause when those trials come
My human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored."

I know i've made the right decision. Whoever said life was gona be a bed of roses anyway? I'm willing to face the trials that i'll very possibly face. I cant run away from it. I WILL NOT run away it; I'll confront it when it comes knocking on my door. Anyway, like my bro says, as long as I'm happy. Well, I've never been happier. Be happy for me.

Happy National Day Eve

Hmm..i didn't get lost on the 1st day of school yesterday:) had only an hour of lecture tho..first week of sch no tutorials..2nd day of school today was taxing..guess every tues will be the same!..6 hours of lectures in total..from 1.30pm to 7.30pm..with an hour free sumwhere in btwn to eat:P im dead beat now writing crap..jus have to let it out..at least im going home later tonite to sleep!:) oh well, everyday passed is a day closer to the weekend..sooooo looking foward to this weekend especially:) im back in my room now waiting for toon to finish with his table tennis training den dinner den home!

I will find my way

Around school, around my life...i believe everything's part of the Plan..Reasons for Event A and Event B etc happening...i believe i'll come to know of His reasons one day...oh well..im not making much sense..prob cz it's 2am in the morning and my first lecture's at 11.30am tmr :P

All Psyched Up

Alright. Here begins my final stretch of 4 years of hard work. Downloaded the first sem's lecture notes and tutorials and im all ready. Gona drive mum and dad to sch ltr aft dinner to have a look at my hall and my room. School starts tmr! Tho tutorials start next week only tho..*Deep breath* I hope i can pull through this 4 years! No more clubbing(not that i do alot anw) and the bad stuff related to it...Healthy body and healthy mind to pia!! Still have no idea wad ECA to take up anw..want a sport ECA but slack one at that...dun think there is such an offer rite? haha..maybe i'll just stick to playing IHGs (Inter Hall Games).. ok actually i was napping on a nice cloudy sunday afternoon but got woken up by sum stupid community centre activity which i believe is for national day:P Hmm..Dean's list is my aim for the first year...with chem (one of my weakest subs) as one of the modules, it's gona be a super uphill task for me..but i must focus..anw..time seems to pass abit slow here..I wonder why?? ok i do..Fly home soon..

Don't want school to start

What a spectacular ending to an eventful July 2006. The sports camp at NTU gave me opportunities to experience sports which i would otherwise not have tried out on my own like kneeboarding, windsurfing and archery. The most memorable of the 7 days was the Amazing Race over 2 days and 1 night. My group was totally awesome. Led the whole race from start to the end. Anyway tho we were all tired and sleepy after the camp, i still had one thing to fulfil and fulfil i did. Only then cld i sleep soundly....Went Ice-skating yesterday for the first time in years again! Exhilarating.

Oh well, school's starting next week. moving in to hostel later tdy but kind toon has cleaned up our room already lol. Thx bro!

I'm gonna miss you.

-yi pa underlae pa li ya pa
apple apple orange hor le kar-

Everything happens for a reason

It's true. Especially now so..the people we meet, the paths we choose. It's the 1st time in a long while i felt so good after attending Mass at the cathedral. Felt God calling me back telling me that he's alwz ard to help. I just keep forgetting that he's there:( I know he has sent me an angel. I'm flying without wings, to the moon and back, back for good.

Right next door to Hell

Ok not exactly. There have been truly happy times where i just lose myself and live in the present. Got to know more of my jie (Gloria) and spent longlost quality time with my brothers!!Unfortunately, with the good comes the bad, the bad comes the good. The past week has seen me experience so much more and opened my eyes more than the previous 4 years put together i can say. Learnt about human behaviour. Alot. We shouldn judge people by their surface actions cz it's a real sad thing. Good people make mistakes; bad people change. I duno which I belong to. I have no idea wad I have become. I dun even noe who I am anymore, what I want, where I'm heading, why I'm doing stuff I wldn dare do in the past. 7 days of nights, 7 nights of days. Not that I'm complaining. Do i really noe what i want in life? i need a tourguide for my life journey. Sigh. Must be delayed 2nd puberty. God help me.