痴心绝对

看见你和他在我面前

证明我的爱只是愚昧

你不懂我的 那些憔悴

是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退 我的防备

静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天

直到那一天 你会发现

真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

In His Time

"Don't get disappointed when God doesn't give you what you want...For He knows the best time for you to have it"

The possibility

Un-melancholic. I like nice dreams. I wish they'd turn into reality. =)

To answer a question

The answer surfaces when you least expect it to.

11 months to Christmas

Live for the moment. You're only young once.

Surreal

What a month to remember thus far; and it's still January of 2010. This year seems to have many interesting things in store for me if every month is such. More precisely, what a week. Never would I have imagined. Surreality. Melancholic.

Anyway, if all goes well, I may be heading to the USA come May straight after FYP presentation. To the Grand Canyon. Excited much. Nv stepped on American soil.

Applying for a position at EADS. Just trying my luck.

Breakfast and supper and breafast and supper for 5 consecutive days. Unfathomable.

Need to buck up for FYP in the meanwhile!

Greener pastures

I'm loving the new chapter in this book.

A New Chapter

"Don't close the book. Just turn the page."

That aside, pls take care of yourself while you're away. I really felt it after reading your blog about your near encounter with those ppl. That guy was really God-sent. Thank Him for keeping you safe.

Last nite, channel 5 just screened 'A New Hope - Starwars Episode 4'. A little apt? =P

School starts.

I can't wait to see what 2010 has in store.

Sunshine and the rain

I thought I was over you, but even the others could tell otherwise. I guess I don't realise it after all. It was sunshine and rain altogether at the same time. It's my dream; we all are entitled to dream right? Everything starts with one. I know now isn't the right time, perhaps you still aren't ready, perhaps for me you never will be. But it's ok. I try to do things and leave it as neutral as possible so you wouldn't start thinking all over again. I can just sit by the side. I don't know if what I'm doing now is waiting till it's really impossible. I will pray about it. I will pray for you.

I will miss you.

Sometimes, we'll only learn to appreciate people when they're no longer with us.

Goodbye 2009 Hello 2010

So I ushered in the new year with MJ at ET's. was initially down by 23, but some sick hands and I overturned the deficit into a profit of 36. For my own pleasure to remember, a few 'penghu's in a row, plus 2x 5-tai zi-mo including a xiao-san-yuan, a few other 5-tais, a near zi-yi-se, and an animal 'an-kang' were highlights of a super sick MJ luck I had last night. But lately my luck has been rather good of late. Perhaps 2010 will be a life-turning year for me? (think toto haha)

Anyway, I've progressed with my FYP finally. But analysis of results dun seem too convincing. Theory doesn't match the result. But oh well, I progressed.

Exam results came out on the 30th. As usual, subjects which I thought I'd do well weren't as good, and vice versa. But the bright side is I hit a 4 for the first time in my uni life. It may be the norm for some ppl, but I think it's my own personal target this sem and I'm glad I achieved it. My aim is a super high 4.7 next sem. =S

Later on that very same day, rode to town to pass some documents to my friend, but clever me decided to take the chance to not top-up petrol just yet. Luckily, it died at KPO, just within walking distance of cine. Then it wasnt a very pleasant surprise when I saw my friend too. 2 blows in a day. Ok can. Went home, walked to Jelita Caltex, bought petrol and dabao-ed it back to KPO to feed my baby. Pokered that very night. Was doing well, but eventually lost an all-in; perhaps was too rash. What a day.