10 months to Christmas

Feel so... jaded
Want to run away

Just for memory's sake, how Hall 6 lost the track title. Tied on points with Hall 3, but Hall 3 had gold for 3 events while we had 2. And that was through disqualification of Hall 1 which enable Hall 3 to move up the standings. BUT, IF I HAD RUN THE 4X100m, I AM SO DAMN CERTAIN WE COULD HAVE FINISHED WITH A GOLD, IF NOT SILVER AT LEAST, IN WHICH CASE 1 FREAKING POINT DETERMINES US BEING THE OVERALL TRACK CHAMPS!

And rugby in the afternoon didn't have a fairytale ending too. But no complains. I think I'm proud and happy with my team.

Here ends my love affair for sports with Hall 6. Mixed feelings of what could have, or could not have been throughout my 4 years. No medals in my final year. But memories to take with me. Battle scars to show for. Then again, nothing lasts forever. Empires and dynasties come and go.

I need a miracle. Can i recover from a bad ankle sprain in 2 days? Pls God.

"And time will pass me by~"

OMG. the play count for 'will you wait for me' by kavana is a staggering 40 on my itunes. haha. And it's recently been added lol.

Just the thought of...

It's hard not to feel this way. Ok, don't think.

Unfinished business

1) Health
2) Career/Finance
3) Heart
4) Schoolwork

What does one call this?

The Unnamed feeling. Restlessness? Maybe. Helplessness? Perhaps. Wanting-to-do smth-but-in-no-position-to-do-so. Knowing-something-isn't-right-but-unable-to-place-a-finger-on-it.

Songs say it best

Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

I Can Wait Forever - Air Supply
I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know it's worth it all, to spend my life alone with you

How Did I Fall In Love With You - Backstreet Boys
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Can't lose what you never had - Westlife
Rules are made for breakin'
Nothing ventured nothing gained
I'll be no worse off than I am right now
And I might never get that chance again
...
I don't care if you think I'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losing you
You can't lose what you never had
...

Absolutely

To love is to take risk. To love is to wait. To love is to break the barriers. To love is to run the miles. To love is to give and not to take. To love is to keep on reaching out. To love is to never give up. To love is to be patient. To love is to speak from the bottom of your heart.

Amor no intercambiado

Esto hace daño a mí mucho siempre que yo sepa que usted está con él. Sin embargo, sólo puedo ser un amigo bueno a usted. Rezaré y esperaré que un día yo tenga tu amor.

And if I promise not to feel this pain, will I see you again, will I see you again?

An end to January. My heart's already been on a roller coaster.